basta ganun.

Hello again. Just ate dinner. I actually had dinner, before my family. Im alone here, upstairs. My familys downstairs, eating their dinner.

My brother just pissed me off. And again, negative thought of him come in and out my head vividly. Like just now, I told him to turn on HBO cause its Whit Chicks.He said he was watching that poker game show. I asked him again, and said that he stayed at home the whole day, and so he had lots of time to watch. I was out the whole day. He said "Tan, EXCUSE ME....". I didnt know what else he said cause I covered my ears, due to being tired of hearing all his blabbs, and nagging. I was also making faces behind him.

And so, when I was eating alone, my eyes were stingy. My mind was reminding me of the negative thoughts I had of him.

Sometimes, I feel, like I have no brother. I wish and pray for a real BIG BROTHER. Like the one who'd cuddle, play, hug with me, and peck me on my cheeks. He's the only, and only brother I have, and I guess, I wouldnt change him. =|

My sister says, its because they grew up together. And so, he didnt feel he had a younger sibling. And then I came into the picture. But, I didnt feel love from him.